Gift of the universe

"When the universe gives you a gift, you don't say no." That's a quote from a cliched romcom I just watched, because, well, 4 am in the morning in the middle of a week just felt right! 

Yesterday afternoon I had a fun outing, and after long I could see myself being someone beyond resilient. it's just that luck has always been my ally. I have had right opportunities at the right time, to the extent of having exact questions that I had prepared for in my boards exams! I somehow always know.

The universe has been very kind to me, my baba has never ever disappointed me. It always felt as if the universe telling me, "Your wish is my command."

So, if that's the case, then why is it that I am not living my best life, why is this half-baked existence? Because, most times, I have been saying "No" to the universe's gift, always reasoning that I am not good enough, that I am not fated for it, that this isn't what I want. My excuses were all due to my deep-seated self-doubt. Why else would I not yet finalize the stupid book that is lying finished on my laptop for over an year! 

I am just too scared to be myself, to allow universe to shower everything that it thinks I deserve and yet, I am the gatekeeper to my own happiness. What a stupid, dumb person I am.

It's only when I genuinely believe that I truly deserve what I am being given, this life will finally start making sense.

So, at this random hour, after watching some totally random movie, I swear to myself that from today onwards, I will never say no to the universe's gifts. After all, not everyone is as lucky as I am or gets a second chance (or is it third) to remain prepared to say 'Yes' to the greatest gift that the universe has ever chosen for me! 

Maybe, life isn't that random after all!