You are the reason...

Whatever I do, nothing gives me any satisfaction, nothing. There is this void which is just there and while everything else, every other distraction puts a thin layer of invisibility on top of it, the void is not about visibility anymore. It has become a part of who I am, and I am somehow learning to live with it.

It's bloody painful. And yet it's now throbbing inside, pain has become a part of it, numbing out. Sometimes it feels I may not feel alive without this bitter-sweet feeling.

I am because you are! 

Jad tak main jeena, mere jeen di wajah tu!