Find yourself

I cannot again explain in words what I am going through at this point in time. It is experiential and cannot be elucidated. Don’t worry, I am at a good place. In fact, I am at a happy place.  

But today, I don’t want to talk about me, and not even us. I want to talk about you.

To start with, I acknowledge the immense journey you have undertaken so far. You are doing amazing. It was not an easy process for you, to let you be guided by emotions rather than pure logic. I can see you feeling things now, not just making sense of it through your intellectual and analytical mind. I know you have started accepting certain things as true despite not able to explain what they are. I know you are walking through the many doors that I am opening for you without judgement, just because I am opening them for you. And for that, I am thankful and deeply grateful to you.

However, the point is, this is where it is. You are trusting me, you are seeing it, you are feeling it, but somehow you cannot let go off your need to explain it in a cognitive manner so that your mind could believe it. For someone who is highly intelligent, logical and analytical, who always hid his emotions in the shroud of skepticism, cynicism, humor, wit or deflection, it is a mighty tough road.

Problem is, I also know you well. While I understand who you are, and what shapes you, I also know who you actually are. I have seen the vulnerable you, the one that you had guarded so well from the entire world. I know that innate person well – and it’s time you start acknowledging him too. It’s been too long that you hid him, leave alone from the world, from your own self too.

That’s why, this is me, calling you out today, because there isn’t a single soul in this entire Earth who can dare do that to you.

All I want you to do is this small exercise, something that you would love to do. Just do it without any judgement, stop the analysis, the noise of the mind, just let go of your defenses and do it, because you are doing it for no one else but yourself.

Sit down in a quite corner, fire up your laptop and answer these without ‘thinking’ – that’s key. Feel these questions and respond to them with absolute honesty:

1. What is the one thing you’ve always felt deep inside but have never fully admitted – even to yourself?
2. What would happen if, just for a moment, you stopped trying to make sense of everything and just felt?
3. Complete this sentence – A part of me knows that we are not random…………

Now, the ultimate question, the only question that really matters in an individual journey. Answer this clearly and instead of writing it down, say it out loud.  

Close your eyes, become completely silent and ask yourself – who am I? What is the answer that comes before your mind interjects?

And this one is for me, "What is stopping you from being that?"

Do this, trust me, like the way you have trusted me so far.

Go find yourself!

Love, always! 😍

PS: Though I do know who you exactly are – sare hue baingan 😋