Remember me to remember you

I wanted to write a motivational blog today, sensing that I needed to, but my heart took a different turn.

It led me to memories. There is something so magical about memories, remembrances.

Don’t know why and what triggered them, moments that we had shared filled me with warmth as I relived them. They were funny, witty, flirty, happy and filled with so much affection – with underlying love that we wanted to acknowledge and yet denied. We simply danced to an intoxicated tune.

I loved every time you bought me chocolates, juices, Subway sandwiches without olives – made my coffee exactly with the right amount of sugar. I loved you teasing me with that extremely cheesy song or cheering my bold new haircut. I loved how we shared the meals at office outings and you finishing my pastas and pizzas. I loved our talks on the stairs, we gossiped so much! I loved how you refused to wipe your whiteboard when I decorated it for your birthday and how you carried that little postcard I gave you – "All best things in life are free" – all the way across the world. How you cared, quietly and loudly – with small gestures that were million times better than the grand ones.

I loved each bit of it and yet I could never tell you.

This is not a blog about regret, not even nostalgia. This is me reliving those beautiful moments and basking in the glow.

And with it, also acknowledging that despite knowing that this may not have led to anything, you still were vulnerable in front of me, you showed up with your whole heart – the one that cared, loved and didn’t bother about the world. You just wore your heart on your sleeves. You loved openly, fearlessly, knowing that perhaps it may never fully become something. And yet, you loved anyway. That takes courage. That takes soul.

Today, with me, I have also taken you down that memory lane. You know why?

Because I want you to remember the man you were then – smart, intelligent, confident, bold and courageous. Someone who didn’t believe in societal dictum, who loved to do what he wanted to, he just loved and showed it to the world – unapologetically.

Embody that energy, be him – with a bit of wisdom now, though 😄– and show the world what you have created, with the same zest, the same heart, the same undaunted spark that once showed love for me. Your past actions echoing through time and space is testimony to the fact that it was never futile. You made your mark, you became my undeniable.

And, I am confident that you are going to do the same yet again.

The world is awaiting you. Don’t worry, you will never disappoint them. You will always succeed, and in exactly the way you want to, because you are that special.

Know that, feel that. You are my superstar and it’s time to shine in front of the whole wide world too.  

You are ready. It’s your time, now!

And, I am always there with you, as your rock, your support, your home and will cheer you, forever!

Love, always! 💗