What if?

What if, whatever you had been thinking about someone is not true? What if they are not the person that they showcase themselves to be? What if deep down you knew that it was just a mask that they put on, as they really don't want to sound crazy, as people may not understand them? What if you stopped listening to your inner voice, your intuition that had never been wrong since your childhood, just because what the person was showing on the outer surface was intimidating? 

What if, all of a sudden you realize that you have been wrong all along? That it is not the other person but you who have been the fool, that it never was about the other person, but it was always about you, and how you have remained forever stuck at a position that you somehow believe is the best place to be. That you refused to see what you were doing and even now refusing to see what your heart and mind and even body had been screaming for so long. That you are on a journey for a very long time but get deviated by reasons that are bound by logic, reasoning and materialistic ideas. 

What will you do if the foundation on which you were basing your ideas are not valid at all? What if the truth that was so clear was not clear to you, only because you didn't want it to be? What if you clouded it on purpose so that you could put the blame on someone else and not do the work yourself? What if even at this point you are overthinking, over analyzing and being scared to hell, afraid of failing and losing and getting hurt all over again? What if you know that these do not merit any validation, yet you refuse to give up? What if even after knowing that you need to trust, surrender and let go, you still are standing at the precipice, looking down with fear, and not just closing your eyes and jumping off the cliff, knowing full-well that you will be safe, that you cannot see the depth of anything, that you don't know what the next moment in your life would be? Yet, you refuse to give up. Will you keep letting your fear win over, again and again and again, and being stuck like this forever and ever?

Now, what if I just replace all the above 'You' with 'I'. Guess, that will make me less of a coward and help me clearly see the truth, about myself, more than anything. 

There is a lot to process, but then I am here to go with the flow and trust the new path that I could see ahead, pivot and let myself be guided.